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check

i tend to make lists when i want to get things accomplished. the list must be written on crisp, clean paper; clear, bold declarations of my intentions written neatly & succinctly. the list is to be displayed prominently in an eye-drawing location to serve as a constant reminder of the tasks at hand. my lists serve to ease my anxiety, although sometimes they only perpetuate my feelings of helplessness; there is so much i need to do & most times i feel as if i am incapable... but usually, compiling a list gives me a sense of control over my life. i feel empowered as i write down my agenda, planning realistic goals to achieve. i envision them as obstacles to overcome, missions to complete, or enemies to vanquish. they are made more permanent on paper, tangible. i review my list frequently. i add notes to my bullet points, an addendum here, a revision there. i write & i rewrite & revise & rewrite... until the time comes that, with great satisfaction, i cross them out. one thick line. a whimsical check mark. baby steps for an adult.