i got a tattoo.
a personal memorial for my dear friend.
it is large & will be on my body forever.
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Monday, October 5, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
update
work is going well. besides the fact that i work in the same hotel as 7 of my friends (we all have different positions there), i have gotten really cool with all of the guys that i work with; the girls not so much, but that's to be expected seeing as i am not a "bar chick" & they all seem to be. unfortunately, rooftop lounges are not all that popular once the fall/winter season comes along, but at least i can make enough money to hang out & pay off my bills & school debt.
i followed through with my haircut as well. actually, it wasnt what i originally planned. to be perfectly honest, i just wasnt brave enough to shave my head just yet, but my hair is still a lot shorter than it has ever been in my entire life. when my stylist, amanda, was washing my hair before the big cut, she asked why i was so determined on making such a drastic change & i told her, "i want to get rid of all the negative energy that is trapped in my hair." she laughed & rosanna & i were surprised that she had never heard anyone say that before, but its something i meant to be taken seriously. i really feel like this haircut has been a catalyst for me, i feel like the weight of so many insecurities & fears have been cut away from my spirit & i feel freer & more optimistic than i have in a long, long time.
before & after
the best part is that i was still able to cut enough off the length to donate to locks of love:
hopefully for my next update i will be able to write less about the actual physical, literal changes that have occurred in my life & delve deeper into the changes i have been feeling in regards to my mental attitude & emotional state. my friend has been telling me some very intriguing things dealing with numerology that have really blown my mind & basically changed my whole perspective on life in general... but i will save that for next time.
i followed through with my haircut as well. actually, it wasnt what i originally planned. to be perfectly honest, i just wasnt brave enough to shave my head just yet, but my hair is still a lot shorter than it has ever been in my entire life. when my stylist, amanda, was washing my hair before the big cut, she asked why i was so determined on making such a drastic change & i told her, "i want to get rid of all the negative energy that is trapped in my hair." she laughed & rosanna & i were surprised that she had never heard anyone say that before, but its something i meant to be taken seriously. i really feel like this haircut has been a catalyst for me, i feel like the weight of so many insecurities & fears have been cut away from my spirit & i feel freer & more optimistic than i have in a long, long time.
the best part is that i was still able to cut enough off the length to donate to locks of love:
hopefully for my next update i will be able to write less about the actual physical, literal changes that have occurred in my life & delve deeper into the changes i have been feeling in regards to my mental attitude & emotional state. my friend has been telling me some very intriguing things dealing with numerology that have really blown my mind & basically changed my whole perspective on life in general... but i will save that for next time.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
btw.
i should be sleeping right now as i have my first official solo shift working at 10am. i guess its nerves & not wanting to oversleep that is causing my current insomnia considering i have been going to bed & waking up early for the past couple of weeks; figures!
i'll survive.
in any case, this is an attempt to brace myself & any readers for a drastic change in my appearance to occur on friday at 6pm. at this day & time, i will be cutting my hair. big whoop, right?.. it is to me, at least. & when i say drastic, i mean it. i am planning on something just short of completely shaving my head, depending on the stylist's recommendation. regardless, i am looking forward to doing something completely different, something unexpected. my friend sofi shaved her head a few years back, & although i didnt know her at the time, the idea has inspired me. sofi says that she has never been more confident than during the time that she shaved her head & lost the vanity of her hair, & i really dig that concept. i want to rid myself of certain insecurities & be able to say, "this is me, take it or leave it."
i have hair seperation anxiety.
lets just hope i can find the courage to actually go through with it.
i'll survive.
in any case, this is an attempt to brace myself & any readers for a drastic change in my appearance to occur on friday at 6pm. at this day & time, i will be cutting my hair. big whoop, right?.. it is to me, at least. & when i say drastic, i mean it. i am planning on something just short of completely shaving my head, depending on the stylist's recommendation. regardless, i am looking forward to doing something completely different, something unexpected. my friend sofi shaved her head a few years back, & although i didnt know her at the time, the idea has inspired me. sofi says that she has never been more confident than during the time that she shaved her head & lost the vanity of her hair, & i really dig that concept. i want to rid myself of certain insecurities & be able to say, "this is me, take it or leave it."
i have hair seperation anxiety.
lets just hope i can find the courage to actually go through with it.
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