btw.

i should be sleeping right now as i have my first official solo shift working at 10am. i guess its nerves & not wanting to oversleep that is causing my current insomnia considering i have been going to bed & waking up early for the past couple of weeks; figures!

i'll survive.

in any case, this is an attempt to brace myself & any readers for a drastic change in my appearance to occur on friday at 6pm. at this day & time, i will be cutting my hair. big whoop, right?.. it is to me, at least. & when i say drastic, i mean it. i am planning on something just short of completely shaving my head, depending on the stylist's recommendation. regardless, i am looking forward to doing something completely different, something unexpected. my friend sofi shaved her head a few years back, & although i didnt know her at the time, the idea has inspired me. sofi says that she has never been more confident than during the time that she shaved her head & lost the vanity of her hair, & i really dig that concept. i want to rid myself of certain insecurities & be able to say, "this is me, take it or leave it."

i have hair seperation anxiety.
lets just hope i can find the courage to actually go through with it.