ideas ideas ideas

i am tired of being afraid of hard work, of failure. tired of this fear of not living up to my own expectations. you never know unless you try: sound advice i rarely listen to, but i will, from now on.

rainey & simone, you have inspired me with your ideas & now i need to look within myself for inspiration.

i want/need to be creative. without it, i will only continue to sink into the boring, the blase (accent on the e). creativity should come naturally but if it is stifled by fear it will never have a chance to manifest.

this is me, trying to motivate myself.

its the end of the world as we know it

I just got this application for my phone called "Sky Map." It shows you which stars, planets, constellations, etc are visible in the sky according to your location. i havent used it yet, seeing as it isnt dark out, but according to the comments on the application page, you can actually see the planets aligning! I find that pretty spooky considering the prophecies surrounding the year 2012... I'm not prepared for the world to end without having been able to really explore any of it. Polar switches & massive climate change would really put a damper on all of our futures, if we even have much of a future in the state this world is in. But we have to be positive, right? Who knows what will happen to any of us in the next 4 years? All we can do is try to steer our lives on course to destination-whatever-plans we may have. Personally, I've never been one to plan ahead, but its time that I set some goals, especially now that I believe there's an actual time limit. & if there isn't? Then at least I accomplished something.

More on this later.