woe is me.

i never have anything to write about. actually i probably have a lot of things to write about but lately i haven't found it therapeutic to write about things that are upsetting me. bullet points are helpful. such as, i will never purchase important textbooks from amazon.com again. faulty sellers/shipping might cause my academic downfall of '08. i have an academic downfall every year that i attempt to go to school & this year, when im actually trying quite hard, circumstances that are beyond my control result in an epic FAIL. i just found out that i am a day late to withdraw from my stats class so i will have to take an 'F' grade up the ass with no lube which may put my financial aid in jeopardy seeing as im already on academic probation... i guess that was more than a bullet. this whole textbook situation has been driving me crazy since the semester began & at this point is keeping me so far behind on my work that I've been feeling extremely hopeless, depressed, & unmotivated. & by extremely i just mean, more than usual. thus, i have been finding it harder to take care of my limited responsibilities such as attending class & keeping peace with my mama. our relationship has been more than strained as of late. in fact, she wished death upon me the other day. i try not to take it seriously & blame the menopause but the truth is that im pretty much an ungrateful, selfish, & shitty daughter. i hear the first step on the road to recovery is acceptance, but what is step 2?